Hello Everyone:
Another hot day today. It seems like this heat will never end. Although, I think some permanent relief is finally insight. The day after Yom Kippur found me in wind down mode. Winding down until Sunday evening when the next round of holiday begins. At least, this one is a fun one. I let sis know that I would put in an appearance or two. Tonight, I'm just chilling out after a typical Thursday of doing chores. At least I got to chat with the Brit BF for a little while. Always like talking to him. I wish I could do more and I know he feels the same way. We had a nice exchange of messages this morning on Facebook messenger. I told him how grateful I am for his presence and he shared with me how he has grand plans that somehow include me, or as he puts it, his "earthly goddess." Such praise. He things big and it's great but sometimes I think, "what if he doesn't get everything he plans for or not at all?" How would he handle the disappointment? I know he's giving it his all but I'm afraid he's setting himself up for a big let down. I hope everything works out for him and he remembers me. I shouldn't make myself so small in his life but sometimes he can be so overwhelming and the only way I deal with it is to make myself small. Stay out of the way, do my own thing out of the spotlight. He wants the spotlight and he sees the both of us enjoying a life I find so antithetical to my own life. Mostly, I hate the attention. I hope he gets everything he wants. I'm just glad he's in my life.
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