Leave The Rest

Hello Everyone: I applied to the Associate Teacher position today. It was the easiest submission I've done, just a resume and a nice cover letter. In the letter, I mentioned my positive experience as a former employee, so hopefully that'll get their attention. I found myself feeling a little anxious this afternoon because I paid the rent. I had to stop and take a few breaths and remind myself that I'm doing everything I can and have to leave the rest to the universe. Case in point, after I submitted my resume, I kept checking my email to see if the school sent an replied to me. They did, saying they received my resume and would get back to me. Of course I kept checking to see if they got back to about meeting me. Ridiculous, right? If I don't hear from them by Wednesday, I'll send them an email. I also have to remind myself that I've made tremendous strides forward since mum passed away. I feel like I beat all the predictions of doom and only direction I have to go in is up. I'm grateful to all those who helped me in the beginning, even the BIL, and to those who continue to constructively help me. I just do the work and leave the rest up to the universe. That alone is an improvement over last year when I had no faith in anyone or anything. I guess simple faith and gratitude is all need. I've never been one for great professions of faith and gratitude. In a way, writing about my anxieties and meditation helps calm me down. I notice that on mornings when I take extra time to get out of bed and skip the meditation, I feel more anxious during the day. Sometimes it's ok to sleep in but most days it leaves me kind of guilty for not doing anything leading to a sense of anxiety. Tomorrow I have something else to do and I want to finish another job application. I just tell myself faith over fear, knowledge is power, do the work and leave the rest to the universe.