Holding A Grudge

Hello Everyone:

A good day for me and by that I mean I got what I needed to done. Oh yes, mom didn't nag about Sunday. I don't really see much of a point to going over there unless it's vitally important and even then I have to think about it. I'm just really bored with their company. Actually, I'm still mad at them over my grad school graduation. Yes, it's been four years but I really feel like I never got a proper timely apology. When I said something about it, I got called spoiled. What made it even worse was the very next year my eldest nephew finished middle school and mom made sound like he was getting his Ph.D from a prestigious university. I had to put my foot down hard. I mean it took mom a year to even acknowledge that she screwed up.  It sounds like I'm carrying on far too much but it still hurts. I'm not lashing out at anyone anymore but I'm not exactly anxious to forgive and forget. It was an important day that was crapped on and I can't get it back. Now I just try to have as little to do with anyone. I can do civil but beyond that is too much of an effort. That's basically the reason I don't respond so quickly to their invitations for anything. That was one of the reasons I didn't want to go to Israel for Passover. I wish sis would stop inviting me over. I think it's just a matter of courtesy. It's like when someone says "come over anytime" and you know they don't mean it.  Maybe I am carrying on far too much but it still hurts.  I still remember last year when my niece graduated high school mom was going on about getting her a present to the point where she suggested that I get a card and she'll give me money to put in it. I told her no, I was just going to fulfill an obligation and kill an evening. She will not get anything from except a polite congratulations.  So that's why I really don't want to be around them.