There isn't much love in this world

Hello All:

What's going today?  Not much, I have a little headache.  It's not too bad, I think it's mostly related to the windy weather.  Every time the wind shifts direction, my allergies flare up.  Such is life.  So it's Wednesday afternoon and the world is still rotating after the horrific events in Boston, Massachusetts.  So much sadness in the world today.  I was thinking about how there is so much sadness these days and not enough joy.  Sorry to sound so gloomy but I sometimes get these random thoughts when I run.  Much of this sadness is caused by other people upon other people.  Whether shooting ups schools or setting off explosives at a marathon, so much pain and unhappiness.  What for?  To prove a point?  It's not worth it.  If someone wants to make a point then do it at the ballot box.  You have emotional issues, get help or if you know some one that needs help make sure they get it.  Taking it out on innocent people is not the answer.  There are better ways to deal with your issues.  I'm not trying to make light of the fact that there are very dangerous people out there who only want to do harm to others.  I have no idea why these people derive satisfaction from causing as much death and destruction as they.  I'm asking a lot of existential questions aren't I?

Being a creatively inclined person, I look to writing and music as my way of dealing with whatever issues I have going on.  I remember during the finally stages of writing my thesis, I was so grateful for the power of music.  I was able to connect with some songs that truly encapsulated my extremely tense and anxious mood.  These songs still can do that.  By listening to music, I can  visualize what that mood looks like, give it color and form.  Mostly the colors I see are shades of indigo and gray in amoebic shapes.  Storm colors.  In happier moments,  I see brighter colors of reds in stronger geometric shapes.  There are songs that give me a real mood lift.  As I've continuously said, writing gives me a direct unfiltered form of self-expression.  I can say whatever I need or want to say clearly and articulately.  Verbalizing how I feel is a little harder because I often speak in the moment and sometimes words fail.  When I sit at the computer, as I'm doing now, I can let the feelings flow more freely.  It's a good way for me to deal with what's bothering me at the moment and get rid of some of the heat of the emotion.  I like that.