Patience and other things

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I'm in a bit of a cranky mood today.  The source of my crankiness is the usual list of irritations.  At least I have some time to myself to process my thoughts.  I think that part of my mood today is caused by my lack of patience with people.  I'm the most patient person in the world.  I try to remind myself everyday to maintain my patience.  It doesn't always work but I try, at least.  I think my impatience stems from a general sense of restlessness.  I like to be on the move all the time, have some purpose.  Waiting around for people and things seems to stop my momentum.  This is especially true since I've daily blog entries a discipline.  I start to get really anxious when I don't sit down to put words on the screen.  I feel like I need that structure otherwise I get too bored.  Having some sort of structure right is important.  While I look for work, I feel that I need to maintain a daily routine.  This routine puts purpose in my day and gives me something to look forward.  If I know that I have something planned for a particular moment, then I don't feet at such loose ends.  I'm actually not good with too much free time.  If I have an extended period of free time then I start to engage in destructive behavior such as over eating.  This is no good.  I also get a bit obsessive with things that really don't deserve any amount of real attention or spend too much time doing useless things online.  Thus, if I have some sort of structure in day then I can feel like I'm doing something worth while.

On a different note, the whole nudity thing feels really good.  I actually had a very restful sleep last night, just me and sheets.  I never thought that it would feel this good or I would actually learn to love the body I've been given.  It's almost been a week since I started sleeping in the nude and I genuinely enjoy the experience.