Fantasies

Hello Everyone:

Well I told the on/off bf how I genuinely feel about him and you know what?  It was scary but so worth it.  Apparently, he feels the same way.  I also told him I wanted to make love to him.  That set off a flurry of very pornographic emails.  The superscary part about that one is that I have back up my words with action.  Can I do the things I said I wanted to do?  I hope I'm up to the task I set up for myself.

Essentially what I told him is that I missed him and thought about him, not always in the purest way.  I wanted him to make slow, sweet, tender love to me.  No more holding back, no fear, no insecurities.  Just unrestrained, wild passionate love.  He then asked me if I imagined him in bed at night.  Here's what I told him: I imagined him his lips pressed against mine, slowly moving down pausing at my neck, then moving down to my breasts taking the nipples in his mouth; kissing and caressing them, moving further down to the space between my legs where I get the most amazing orgasms.  Then I imagined my nude body on top of his.  Starting from the top and working my down kissing his lips, his neck, moving further down to the area between his legs, kissing and caressing his penis and testicles, licking them.  Our bodies would be pressed so close to each other that we could not breath.  The I told him I wanted inside me in slow rhythmic manner.  Gently, back and forth until that explosion of passion.  I'd be kissing so hard by that point.  I wanted to feel his hard erect penis as he prolonged the pleasure.  I want to feel his lips against mine, in my cleavage, my hard nipples.  Finally, we'd asleep from the pleasure, intertwined in each others arms.

In one email yesterday evening, he mentioned a drive along the coast.  I have this fantasy of the two of us driving to this secluded spot peeling off our clothes and running into the ocean.  Our bare wet skin in contact with nature.  Then afterwards, making slow sweet love on the beach in the open air.

I think I need a cold shower.