Exhausted

Hello Everyone: I'm feeling less scattered today. The school job has thrown me into a bit of panic, not just over the clothes, over all the pre-employment things I have to do before I can get in front of the class. Between that and the survey company, I have a headache. Speaking of the survey company, the accountant texted me today and I told him about the new work situation. He's (definitely a he) seems like a decent person and the only one who's been sort of straight with me, unlike the pissant. He seemed more concerned about my ability to make drops at the nearest overnight delivery store. I told him I could do that and I think that reassured him. Now if I could only get my paycheck information out of him that would be nice. Anyway, I realized today, in the shower where I do some of my best thinking, I have another option. The insurance company I keep flirting with. Once I get my broker's license, it's another income generating source. One more thing, a couple of good opportunities came up. One is an entry-level job with a local historic preservation agency. I've doing a hard press because I really want that job because I could finally stop wasting my time with all these other stop-gap jobs. It would be "the one." The other job is also a good one: An on-call architectural historian with a multi-national firm. It's a good opportunity for me that could lead to other things. Ugh, I'm so sick and tired of carrying the load all by myself. Yes, I wanted to live alone and be able to make all of my own decisions but this is getting too much. I really wish the Brit BF would finally get the production deal he's been angling for, be my knight in shining armour, and "rescue me" from all this drudgery. The whole thing is exhausting me. No wonder I feel so scattered.