Mountain Of Resentment

Hello Everyone:

This week has been a struggle to finish even post on the blog. Between the holiday and granny nanny duties, it's all I can do to finish a sentence. Today's drama was courtesy of mama. Once again, I got shanghaied into going with her to a doctor's appointment. That already put me in a foul mood because, once again, I'm shouldering all the burden while sis gets to spend a fun day with the family. She's off for a week and in charge of her work schedule so somehow she can never re-arrange her time to accommodate mum?  Bad enough. We get to the doctor and it turns out the appointment is an hour later and she had another appointment with another doctor at a different clinic.  That totally set me off. Of course if I say something, I get labeled selfish. Yes, heaven forbid that I have my schedule and needs. I think she sees me as this entity that exists to make everyone's life more convienent. My e life revolves around her and everyone else.  I'm the selfish one. Right now I'm trying to carve out a few more minutes of alone time so I can calm down. Yes, this is how angry I am. I feel like I wasted time and effort, again. It just maks so angry that no one else even asks if I need anything and I shouldn't even ask becaus that would make someone uncomfortable. Can't have that now can we?  Let's just say it adds to the mounting resentment I have to the creatures that float in and out of the apartment. I can't stand them anymore and wish they would all go away.