Meditate Lesson One

Hello Everyone:

I did my first introductory meditation session today and it felt good. I downloaded the app Headspace and finally gave it a go. The guide is an Englishman named Andy, who makes he whole process less esoteric. No navel gazing required. I'll give it another go tomorrow evening, after dinner. I think this app will come in handy and I found some playlists on Spotify, after my into ten free sessions. I'm not of it'll make me less tension and more focused but, then again, I've only done one session. Rome wasn't built in a day and I have years of tension and scattered thoughts to get through. Otherwise, it's been a pretty status quo weekend. I got into a really good late night Messenger conversation with my friend Dan in Virginia. His partner and I know each other from the Bay Area and we've never met face-to-face. That may change in the future. We started taking about this HBO miniseries I was watching, then veered off into politics. Dan's cool.  He's a conservative leaning independent who can't stand POTUS 45. We chatted for a while before he signed off. I like those kinds of conversations, where I can say what I want freely without being shouted down. It's also nice to have a guy friend that doesn't want have sex. Okay, he's gay and thus, I'm not his type. Now I'm thinking about all the texts and messages the Brit BF and I exchanged. I miss the back and forth.  I've had this notion for a while that he was forced by ask me to move in with him. I wish he would've said something because my answer would've been and still would be yes. I know I'm carrying on way too much about him and should just move on but it's when love someone that much. I'm sure I'll meet someone who I'll love even more but how do replace someone who makes you feel like the Queen of the World?  Hard to do. I'll have to meditate on that.