Still Mad

Hello Everyone:

I'm still angry at the Brit BF but the heat is less intense. He messaged me to find out if I was okay.  What did he think?  That I'm thrilled about it. I told I needed to delay my response to avoid saying anything regretable. I re-read his message and I'm still not sure about how to respond to him. The only thing I could make sens of was that he wanted a break because he feels that we're on two different planes. Everything in-between seems muddled. All I can understand is that I love him and can envision a life with him but I think he wants me to be an idealized version of me. I can't do that, I only know how to be me. I'm happy for support of my endeavors but I don't need him to be my career coach. I need him to be my friend, lover, and possibly my husband. I don't presume to tell him how to work his endeavors because he knows what he needs to do and how to pursue his goal of a development deal. He knows that drill better than I do. I can only support him 200 percent. It's important to him, so it's important to me. I also need the dignity to figure out what to do about my blog.  I don't talk too much about what I write, just give a quick explanation. What do I want to do with my blog?  I think I need to speak someone neutral about what to do. I like the Brit BF's best friend.  He's a marketing and public relations whiz. Maybe I could pick his brain a little. What I'm getting at is I prefer to keep personal and work stuff separate. While I appreciate the Brit BF's support, I want him for a different reason.