Stalker?

Hello Everyone:

I think I reached the stalker phase of this pause. I checked the Brit BF's Facebook feed to see if we're still friends. The answer is yes-thank goodness. I checked his Twitter account and we're still good. I even re-read some of his old messages. I sound pathetic, don't I?  I just miss him terribly. I miss reading his flirty messages, Skype Sunday, the warmth of his voice and smile, everything about him. So I've become a stalker. I really feel guilty about the whole thing. I wonder if he feels the same way?  I want to email him but my pride is telling me don't do it, let him be the first to contact me. The last email I sent him was kind of smart ass. I take full responsibility for the terseness of it because I didn't want to come off as needy. He should be the one to reconnect first. I wonder if feels some responsibility for the state of the relationship?  He should because it takes two people to make a relationship work. He's not perfect. I never said he was perfect, none of his negatives are deal breakers.  I even found myself thinking about him, a natural thing. I imagined a conversation between the Brit BF and a confidant. The confidant tells him that he was being a fool and should do whatever it takes to get me back completely. Maybe but that sounds like the stuff of romantic comedies. Valentines Day is less than a month away so we'll see what happens.