People And Things Do Matter

Hello Everyone:

I've moved to the acceptance phase of this Brit BF pause. He no longer preoccupies my thoughts. That's not entirely true because I still do think about but he doesn't consume my thoughts. So maybe this break is a good thing. I still think about him whenever I see his pictures on my phone. I haven't deleted them because there are quite a few that bring back happy memories. The main thing is he isn't  permeating my thoughts anymore. In the meantime, I have other things to occupy my brain such as a recent flurry of career-job openings. I was thinking about that this morning, coming back from getting the newspaper. The stability of a career-job would be a great source of comfort on many fronts, not the least of which is being able to get my own place.  I go back and forth about a steady job. I like it and the security it brings. I like the potential of upward mobility. At the same time, I look at as just another way to occupy my time and get paid for it. This sense of detachment comes out of one too many part time jobs that never provide me with that sense of security and stability. Kind of like my personal relationships. Sensing a pattern, are we? I find that detachment is an emotion that serves me well. Keeps me from getting too wrapped up in a person or thing so when they or it disappears, it's no loss on my part. It's like I expect it to happen. Maybe the universe sent the Brit BF into my life as a way to get me out of that mind set and settle down. Who knows.  One thing's for sure, all the things and people that came and went before were not as important as I thought they were. I was ignoring that message the universe sent me. The universe is telling me it's time to focused on the people and things that matter if I want the stability I so crave.