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Hello Everyone:

I am enjoying night three of the DNC Convention. Senator Tim Kaine introduced himself in very fine fashion. I like this guy. Right now, I watching POTUS deliver the keynote speech. It's pretty good. Otherwise, it's been a good day. I got the weekly grocery shopping done. I managed to get most of what I needed, without forgetting anything. The Brit BF and I exchanged some good words on the convention and other things. I came to realize something about him. I really love this guy. He is exactly the kind of man I want in my life. He is kind, patient, smart, and funny. He is committed to our relationship and treats me like a queen. He's not perfect but that's okay, I don't want perfect. I want a real person. He is a very real person. I cannot wait to see him in person and spend time with him. The President is rocking the house. Alright back to my thoughts.  I worry that I may not be capable of receiving and giving the love he does deserve. I feel like I've gone for so long without love that I've become totally incapable of it. I haven't been hugged for so long that I don't know what it feels like anymore.  I feel so cold, even in this heat. I hope I don't shy away.  I just have to allow myself to feel. Hard to do. Can I feel again?