What I Really Want

Hello Everyone:

Today I was feeling lonely and in need of some warmth and tenderness.  This need for affection stemmed from yet another terse lunch. She said that she wished I would tell her what I wanted so she could give it to me. What I want is warmth, affection, and tenderness, not more stuff. Stuff I can buy for myself when I need it.  I don't need someone to give me more stuff. What I need is a hug and a kind word on a regular basis, not another thing. I need someone who will listen to me without interruption or judgment. Someone who will say what I need to hear without being hostile or defensive. Someone who will cheer me on and hold my hand when I need support. Sad to say I can't ask mom for those things. She isn't capable of warmth, tenderness, and affection. She's never been good at that. Sis is good with that but I'm not good without the kind word or a hug. Maybe I'm the odd one out but this is what I truly crave more than any pretty shiny toy. I could live comfortably in a modest dwelling, as long as I have someone who makes me feel loved.  I told all this to the Brit BF. He's such a dear man who wants to shower me with everything I could desire. At least that's what he dreams of doing but all I really want is to be under the same roof as him, living a stable and secure life. I can do without couture as long as I have warmth and tenderness in my life. Right now all I have is coldness.