Hello Everyone:
I had a productive day in the blogosphere, writing about the success of Baltimore Maryland's Oriole Park at Camden Yards. The Brit BF also shared some great news with me, he's in line for seed money for his soccer girl comic strip. I'm so happy for him. I hope it comes through and I really hope the strip takes off. As for me, I'm back to wallowing in despair of ever changing my circumstance. I feel like no matter where I apply, I'll end up getting a rejection letter. It's almost like why set myself up for more rejection. I like writing and I would like to get hold of a camera in order to go places, take pictures and writes about it. But I have no clue where to start. If I had the means, I would start with my blog and post to other places. What's stopping me is lack of means. I'm just too embarrassed to admit to anyone that I just don't have anything. It's hard and I feel like people just judge me. So I just stay put. I hate it. I feel like I'm in some sort of free fall with no chance of being caught. I don't how some people can catch all the good breaks in the world and all I can catch is a cold. It just doesn't seem fair at all. Sometimes I feel like I have to attach myself to someone else's star if I want to move forward. It probably doesn't sound as bad as I'm making it out to be because at certain point I'll have to let go and fly on my own. That can be scary but worth it. However, until happens I have to just keep weathering more rejection. I wish someone would be my fairy godparent.
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