Scary Relationship Stuff

Hello Everyone:

I got off the phone with the Brit BF not to long ago. Always great to talk to him. He has such a way of making everything sound better than it really is. We had a great conversation about relationships. We seem to be on the same page about the natural evolution of relationships. I told him that the idea of spending the rest of my life with one person is quite daunting. I mean I look at couples that have been together ten years or more and I think how is this possible. How are these couples able to stay together for so long. The last time I was involved in a long term relationship it was so difficult. All the abuse and the neglect just took a lot out me. It made me think I can't do this anymore. I can't get so closely involved with another person. Now the Brit BF comes along and has visions of the two of us spending our lives together and scares me. I don't know if I can do that again. I've so used to being a solo act that I have no idea what it would be like to have a life partner. I know what's it's like to live with another person, if you count mom. It has it's good moments but to have a life mate?  That's an entirely different thing. Someone who really wants to his life with me that scares me because I'd be too afraid to mess it. I really hope it can work out but I'm so scared that I'll totally suck at this long term relationship stuff. I don't want to ruin this.