Another Saturday Night

Hello Everyone:

Another Saturday night and my date is 5,000 miles away. It might as well be 5,000,000 miles away and I don't know when he's coming back. Although he's been cryptic about returning to Los Angeles. What am I doing instead of clubbing or "hanging with my girls?"  I'm doing the exact same thing I've been doing for about the past year or so, sitting in my pajamas, in front of computer, watching a movie. At least it's a good and fairly recent one, 'Gone Girl.'  I have the book on my iPad. I really wish I would have something more fun to do. Not that watching 'Gone Girl' is a bad thing but I would rather go dancing. It would also be good if I had some discretionary spending money but I don't. Mom isn't much company. All she does is sit in her chair, in the living room, reading some book.  That's basically what she's been doing all day, except when she's not. I don't get it why. Why does she think that just sitting at the table constitutes a relationship. Truth is we have nothing to say anything to each other anymore. Sad but true. Most of the time any conversation we we have devolves into either one of her tangents or an argument. Most of the time, it's mom chattering endlessly about nothing at all just to fill the void. I prefer the silence. The Brit BF does have a tendency to ramble on about whatever has got him going. The difference is he comes to a point, mom just rambles. So here I sit, another Saturday night, alone in front of the computer, watching another movie. I could make more of an effort to make friends but it's sometimes to awkward for me. I can't seem to find anyone with anything in common. Maybe I should hang with people more like me.