Life is pretty mellow today. I'm still floating along on this blissful cloud. Right now I'm sitting in my local coffee place, watching people. This one little girl was shouting out her's and her friend's dress sizes a short while ago. It's fascinating how small children are so uninhibited. I decided that this year is going to be fabulous. Having hit a milestone birthday this past weekend hasn't made me all depressed and introspective. Instead, I seemed to have a little more confidence and energy. In fact, yesterday after I left the cosmetics counter I had an extra bounce in my step. It might had something to do with sales person being so complimentary and helpful but I'll take it. It's interesting that I find what need from strangers. What I need, most of the time, is a friendly word or gesture. Anything that could possible restore my faith in humanity and make believe that the works isn't piling on the crap. I don't get any if it at home, so I have to look elsewhere. In the meantime, I'm just riding this cloud. I think the only thing that would make me completely happy is having the Brit BF here with me. Instead, I have to settle for the phone or messenger. Still, reading his messages or hearing his voice makes me happy and miss him less. My continued involvement with him really annoys mom but I don't care. I still think we have a long way to go before I can say he's the real thing. For now, I'm happy and hopefully can stay that way.
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