I'm feeling a little less petulant today. I've given into the fact that right now there's really not a lot I can do about the distance between the Brit BF and I. He had some great news today and it made me wish I was there to share it with him. Of course all this longing will turn to loathing once we've spent a good amount of time together. It happens with every relationship, you spend a certain amount of time with a person and you start to crave time apart. I've never believed that a couple should spend every waking moment together. A life outside the relationship is important for sanity of the relationship. By a life outside the relationship I mean work and own interests. This way when the couple comes together, they have what to say to each other. Being joined at the hip with my partner is not for me. I get too claustrophobic and want out. I know I've said in the past that our separation would give us both a chance to gain some clarity and perspective on the relationship and I still think this is the case. What I've learned in the last three months is he is a man genuinely loves me heart and soul. This is a person who is dedicated to building and strengthening our relationship. Like me, he wants to make it work. We're adults, not lovesick teenagers or twenty-somethings. We know we have large obstacles in front of us that we still have to confront but I think we can deal with them. He respects me and treats me like a queen. I'm so taken with his confidence, easy going nature, gentleness. In short, he is the yang to my yin. The main thing is I'll always love him dearly in whatever capacity. He is simply someone I want in my life.
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