I talked to BF#2 yesterday afternoon and it was great to listen to him. I just love his confidence and energy. He's a person who knows what he wants and goes after it. It leaves me breathless. I love his ambition and wish I could have a tenth of his confidence. Although, I'm starting to wonder if he has any faults. You know, those things that can drive a person crazy. We haven't really spent much time together for me to see his true side and vice versa. I'm still in the honeymoon stage where I think everything about him is great. I still feel a little anxious talking to him either in person or on the phone because I'm better expressing myself in written, rather, than verbal form. That's more of a by-product of spending too much time in front of a computer, by myself, writing my heart out. I've never been a very good public speaker. How I got through my college speech class is a mystery to me. I think focusing on the the would-be priest in the class helped. LOL. Sometimes when I finish pouring my heart out to BF#2, I go back and read it truly amazed at what I wrote. Where did all those feelings come from. I write so unconsciously that when I go back and read it the depth of feeling just amazes me. I have no idea where it comes from. Why can't I say to him? I guess we all have our own preferred mode of self-expression. Regardless of how I share my feelings with him, it still means the same.
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