I received a touching Facebook message yesterday from BF#2, in which see said that inspire him to greater heights and complete him (no cheese intended). I was standing in line at Whole Foods reading and almost burst out in tears. It was so beautiful to read all that. I really felt genuine feelings of affection. Someone is truly in love with me. How wonderful is that. I feel as if he the missing half to my whole. I really hope it all works out and I finally get to have my happy ending. I just re-read it and it still touches me to the core. His feelings for me are so powerful that I'm overwhelmed. Throughout my relationship history, I've heard such beautiful words come out of one person, directed at me. There is still that part of me that thinks this all just a mirage and will disappear soon. Yet, there is another part of me that believes he's the real thing and whatever obstacles in front of us will be overcome. I've never so attracted to someone so different than me in my life. It's scary and exhilarating at the same time. I just hope I can maintain my independence within the relationship. This is important because I don't want to be so consumed with him that I lose all sense of myself. I am older and wiser. I amre-learning to trust my instincts. My instinct tells me that he is for real. I still want spend more time with him and observe how he is on a daily basis. I want to see how quick he is to anger, what he is like around his friends and family before I make any final decisions. In the meantime, I'm loving the adoration.
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