Finally a Friday. Yea. I get to sleep, read all day tomorrow, and not be bothered by anyone. I spoke with BF#2 Wednesday and he's doing well. From the sound of things it looks as if his animation projects are going to see daylight in the near future. Great, that means we might be reunited soon. We still have a long way before that happens and we still have to have certain conversations but I'm we'll be able to deal with all these issues like two adults. One thing I've notice about BF#2 is his admiration of some of my body parts. It's in an objectifying or degrading manner it's more like, how shall I put it, very appreciative. His referred to my behind as "juicy" (a good thing), my exquisite breasts, my slender back and the way it arches, as well as calling me luscious. Mostly it makes giggle like a school girl. My ego certain loves it. It's definitely a great change of pace from having my ex refer to my anatomy in an immature, middle school boy manner that make me feel ashamed. Or being told to cover up head to toe because I might arouse the passion of a nice Jewish married man. For the longest time I really felt ugly, clumsy, and disgusting even after I lost weight. Over the last year, I've begun to feel better about my appearance, embracing it for all imperfections. Now I'm reaping the results. Someone has noticed in a good way. I don't flaunt myself in anyway, shape, or form. I'm just more comfortable with myself. It's funny, every time BF#2 makes some appreciative remark, I find myself checking it out in the mirror. Yesterday it was my "slender back" and the way it arches. I never really thought of my back in that way or paid attention to the way it arches but here we have it. Really, I don't pay attention to things like and that's good because it keeps me from getting terribly vain.
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