Right now I'm being tortured by an extremely slow wi-fi connection. It's like slow-drip water torture. Coupled with that, is an ongoing issue with the bf. He goes to parties and get together a with friends without me. It makes me think he's just using me for sex. He's reason, actually excuse, I don't check messages or answer the phone until after Shabbat. That's not true. I told him that I do check messages right up until the last possible second. If don't answer right away, it's because I'm otherwise preoccupied. I don't know what gets into his head sometimes. He can be so childish sometimes in a not so endearing way. The bf needs to grow up and realize that the moment when you move from being friends to having sex with each other, the relationship takes on a whole different dimension. I don't want to sound like the clingy girlfriend but I feel like he's trying to compartmentilize our relationship. I have no compunction about taking him to get togethers with my friends and family, why should he. I can certainly behave myself in public. I don't think I'm that embarrassing to be around. I wish would just stop needlessly worrying about minor issues like my keeping kosher and the sabbath and pay attention to the more important things. What are the bigger things, his wallowing in grief and being emotionally present in the relationship. It can be so frustrating that I want to strangle him. Anyway, I've had enough with the slow-drip water torture wi-fi and I'll have to take the bf out to the wood shed. UGH.
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