More Of An Optimist

Hello Everyone: I had to take care of some personal business today that made me a little anxious. Fortunately, the person who helped me was pleasant and the whole transaction was quick. So now I can relax a little. The quiet is beginning to settle in for the evening as the cars slowly find their way back home or wherever they need to be right now. It feels very strange to go from busy street noises to sudden quiet. This is what happens when people get lack about taking pandemic precautions. I really don't blame anyone for pandemic fatigue. I'm tired of the whole thing myself. My favorite part of the day is taking off my mask the minute I get home. I understand the rationale for all the preventative measure, I certainly don't want to end up like my BIL. However, at what point do other people realize that their actions impact how quickly or slowly we get back to some sense of normalcy. I would love to do things like walk out of the house without a mask and to finally be with the Brit BF. I'm optimistic that it'll happen but when. That's one of the positives things to come out of the pandemic: free bus rides and I've become more of an optimist. I still have my moments of pessimism but I've noticed that I don't feel so down about everything. I think that comes from trying to cheer mum up when she was feeling low. I did it so often that I started to believe it. Ok, that's a good thing. Of course, the pessimist in me says, we'll see how long this lasts. I'll be honest it's really hard sometimes to find anything to be optimistic about. The job search is slow and life seems to be on hold. Some days it feels like waking up is the only good part of my day. That is definitely a good thing. All I know is I just have to keep working toward accomplishing my goals, total independence, and I will reach it. It may not be quick or slow but it will happen.