Hello Everyone:
A quiet start to the week. I did some more outreach, this time to a real estate agent someone suggested I contact. I also plan to contact some schools for some sort of employment. I was thinking about something mum kept telling before she passed. She kept insisting that I'd be totally helpless without her. Well, it's been nearly two months and I'm doing alright. I feel like every time self care action I take--grocery shop, financial, job...--is like giving mum the middle finger and telling her, I don't need you to take care of me anymore. I can manage on my own. One thing that still bothers me and I have to speak with Sis and BIL is the fact that I got cut out of the decision-making process. That was a really stupid move on mum's part and I'm surprised no one said anything to her about. Actually, I shouldn't be surprised because it so like mum to make unilateral decisions about my life and it so like Sis just to go along with it. I do have to give them credit for being forthcoming with information when I ask for it but still the fact is I didn't have much of a say in anything still bothers me. It's like what was anyone thinking or not thinking? I know I've talked about this subject at least million times but when I confronted mum about it, she typically blew me off, saying not to worry I'd be taken care of. This is why I can't fully trust family members. I feel like there's still something else that they're keeping from me. I don't know, maybe I'm being paranoid. I definitely have to find a minute to talk with them.
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