Hello Everyone:
The Brit BF sent me a Facebook message on Friday asking if I was available for a Skype chat on Sunday. I was thrilled to read it and told him that I would make myself available to chat. I also said it was nice to hear from him and I missed him. I figured the chat will be either the make up or break up chat. I hope it's the former. I really want things back to the way they were. Obviously they can't be the way they were when we first met but I want to channel some of his optimistic outlook. If it's the break up chat, I'll be ready for it. It'll hurt for a while but I'll survive it. What would genuinely suck is I starting to believe that we would have a life together. I don't care if it's the Hollywood glamour life he envisions or something else, I just was starting to believe in it. I think I'm past grieving the relationship. If it is the break up call he may just want closure. Closure would be good. We can both move on. I'm just not sure if I want to get involved with anyone anymore. I know it's not good to say never but I haven't been with anyone that has gotten to me so deeply. He challenges me (in a good way), he makes me laugh, makes me think, he just make me jump for joy. I loved my time in the U.K. and want to spend more time there. I also want to spend time with him here. Whatever happens is meant to be and I have to be good with that. It'll all be good
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