It is Yom Kippur, the Jewish Day of Atonement. It's the time when we're supposed to take stock of our deeds and words, over the past year, and try to do better. I'm good with that but I keep going back to the same point-why bother if you're going to do the same things all over again? I guess if you make the same mistake over and over again, eventually you figure out what you're not doing right and fix it. Sometimes, maybe not. I think people do have the capacity to learn the errors of their ways, if they're open to it. There some people who just keep doing and saying things they know are wrong but rationalize it as the right thing. The abusive ex was one of those people. He just kept lying, stealing, and cheating because he was able to justify it to himself as the right thing to do. Did he ever get caught? Oh yes he did, numerous times. He made "amends" and went back to doing the same thing that got him in trouble all over again. How he never ended up in state prison is a mystery because he actually stole from his clients because he needed to cover his debts. Anyway, that's ancient history and I've moved on to a much better person. Getting back to Yom Kippur, mom and I were at services earlier this evening and I was bored silly. The rabbi rambled during his sermon and I couldn't wait to get home and do something else. It's a fast day-no food or beverage until tomorrow evening-but I've already had enough. I can manage the fast. Mom asked to come for the concluding services tomorrow but I don't know yet. Sitting in synagogue, I started dozing off and it wasn't even 8:00pm. In the meantime, it's bed time for me.
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