You know sometimes I could just strangle the part time BF. This guy is such a gadget head that when he saw I had a new phone, he got excited like a little boy with a shiny toy. He even tried reaching into my pocket to pull it out and play with it. The thing is, I hadn't exactly told mom about it but he opened his mouth. Needless to say, Mom was angry that I didn't mention anything to her. In retrospect, I should've said something to mom before I got the phone not after. We sort of worked out an arrangement to pay for it. What really annoys me is that she seems so obsessed about the windfall money I got over the summer. Obsessed about the amount, how I'm spending it, why don't I use for a new car, et cetera. I think she's jealous that someone sent me money, not her. Mom can be like that, someone gets something good and she gets jealous. For example, my uncle in Israel qualified for social welfare benefits that she was deemed ineligible for. This set her off because he was able to game the system in his favor. She's also like that with undocumented immigrants. Yes, it sucks to see someone else get benefits instead of you but there's no point in being resentful. Just learn to accept it and the be happy for the other person. Yes, life can be unfair sometimes but you can't walk around with your resentments all the time. Sometimes, you have to set them aside. I understand that mom resents the fact that I got a tuition refund in the four-digit range and no one sent her a four-digit check, but that's life. I want to use it to slowly become less dependent on her and try to contribute to the house. A car, new or used, is not in the realm of possible right now. For now, I have my gold and I'm being careful about it.
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