I've thinking about something for the last few days. The year is barely a week old and already a few people have told me that this year good things are going to happen. Last year, was a year of transition and transitions are always difficult. I don't know if this is a sincere statement or just New Year optimism. It sounds exactly like the same load of bollocks I've been hearing for the past few years. You know, this year is going to be great, all your dreams will come true, ad nauseaum, emphasis on nausea. It sounds cynical but I don't believe in all the pie-in-the-sky optimism, especially since the past couple of years have been one crap pile after the other. What makes me think that 2015 is going to be better. Whatbwould make it better is if I was finally able to land a job in my field or for that matter, any job. I'm so sick of not being able to fully take care of myself. A job isn't a panacea, just a means to a more independent end. On the love life front, while I have the endless devotion and adoration of the Brit BF, I don't have him in the same time zone or area code. The warmth and love that I need is non-existent. G-d knows I don't get any warmth at home. The part timer? He's a great guy but his lack of presence in my life opened up a void that the Brit BF has filled. Thus, why should I believe that 2015 is going to be a great year? I mean nothing seems different. It's just the same crap,mdifferent year. I don't think I'm being too harsh, it's just previous experience talking. The best I can do is take a "I'll believe it when I see it" approach.
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