I'm feeling much better about this interview next Wednesday. I still don't think I'll end up getting it but at least I can give it a go. There's no harm in that. Now for the million dollar question, how am I going to get there? So far the only viable option is to rent a car for the day. I don't see my car being fixed in the immediate future. Now I really want this job, if only to afford a new car. The bf is more excited about the fact that I got an interview then I am. He is right about one thing , it's better to to take the interview and give it an honest go then not. At least my chances of moving on to the next round are better if I sit for the interview then sitting at home moaning. Besides, I could surprise myself and be surprised. I still think it's just nothing more then drone work. The City of Santa Ana doesn't even have a preservation ordinance. Yes, that's kind of important if a city has preservation of their historic heritage built into their General Plan. Of course, the flip side of this is that I could end up being part of writing that ordinance. Wouldn't that be something?! I don't know, I still feel very ambivalent about he whole thing. I'm calculating in my head all the consequences of getting this job and having to move down there. Given my financial mess, I couldn't even afford a cardboard box. I don't have much faith that things will work out for the good, bad, or indifferent. Why does everything have to be so difficult? I think I'm starting to panic and get too far ahead of myself. At Mom isn't carrying on about the interview. I just don't want to talk about with her because she'll make me more anxious and probably end talking me out of it. No, that's not what I want, maybe. I don't know.
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