Monday, June 16, 2014

Still Having Doubts

Hello Everyone:

Now I'm mad at the Man in White for making the opportunity to score a job in my field.  I've already called HIM every name in the book.  The only reason I applied for the job was just for the sake of doing so.  I really didn't think it would get to the point where they want to meet me.  I was re-reading my post from yesterday and two things occurred to me: first, I wrote it on less than a good night's rest which always makes me extra irritable.  Second, I paid close attention to the sentence regarding my ambivalence toward work.  I thought about for a second and I realized that it's not so much about actually have a steady paying job, it's more about getting stuck someplace and doing something I have no real passion for.  Yes, finding a job in my field would be great but the prospect of being stuck in a government job in a city that I'm not happy to be in, doing drone work just so I get a paycheck and benefits doesn't exactly thrill me.  If all I want is a paycheck and benefits, I can go work at some coffee place.  This government job doesn't sound like it would be anything more then mindless soul sucking busy work.  I still could be wrong.  I suppose I could just make an appointment and learn more about what the nature of the work.  Just the same, I can't see any sort of real work, vis-a-vis historic preservation and urban planning in Southern California suburbia.  This a place that reinforces the stereotype of Southern California preservation, if it's more than ten years old, it should be razed.  Disneyland not withstanding, I can't see any sort of serious preservation value in suburbia.  I could be shortsighted,  We'll 

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