No Shame

Hello Everyone:

It's a pretty mellow Wednesday and I'm enjoy a break from the rock music, listening to a flute concerto.  A little later I'll turn up the rock music.  Right now I'm enjoying the music.  Yesterday, I sortof made up with mom and everything is back to neutral, for now.  I guess that's good for now.

For the last few months, I've been sleeping in the nude and I'm happy to report that the whole experience, thus far, has been quite enjoyable.  There is something extremely liberating about having nothing come between me and the sheets.  I'm starting to really embrace the body I have and revel on it.  The sex has been amazing.  I feel that I can give myself more fully to the bf.  I think his noticed it too.  It's not something I share with my oh so prim and proper family.  They seem to look at their bodies as something to hide.  Actually, in traditional Jewish teaching, people are admonished to be modest in their dress.  It doesn't mean you should be ashamed of it, to the contrary, it should be treasured.  It refers to the idea that your outward appearance should not be too revealing or showy.  I'm good with that.  However, like most religious teachings, over time it's been twisted around to place the emphasis on hemlines, stocking thickness and color, necklines, and sleeve lengths.  For married women, the type of head covering.  All very supeficial stuff.  To make matters worse, their men and women out there who tell impressionable young women (their target audience) that their bodies are vessels for sexual arousal and should covered so that no curve or any indication of femaleness is visible.  This so wrong on so many levels because instead teaching young women that their bodies are glorious, they leave them with the perception that their bodies are shameful things.  What's even worse, is that the teachings on modest dress is used as a method to shame, control, and marginalize a segment of religious young women.  The human body is a beautiful thing but it should gratuitously out on display.

If sleeping in the nude has taught me one thing it is accepting myself for what my Higher Power has given me and honoring that creation by not abusing it.