It's very warm Tuesday in Los Angeles and I'm on my to pick up my car from the mechanic. Fortunately all's well that ended well and the car just needed a tune up. I think all the drama that I generated came out of past issues. These issues mostly center on my mom's need to micromanage everything. She's become quite an expert at managing everything down to the most minute detail so that she comes out the hero and the rest of us must fall to the ground, kissing her feet in gratitude. When I try to set boundaries, mom gets upset and accuses me of being a spoiled ungrateful brat. No, that's not the case. The case is usually about careful planning being laid to waste by someone else's need to control the situation down to the finite detail. Control issues, now there's an area I'm the worst at. I'm not some raging control freak but I do try control what I can and let the rest go. I can't control people's actions or reactions, only mine. I can control what I eat and how much of it not what some one makes or how. You get the basic picture. I work on this on a daily basis. It's not easy and sometimes I do generate a lot of really unnecessary drama, another thing I have to work on. I try to remind myself every day to be patient and calm but it's hard. It's especially a challenge around a person who has a life long habit of micromanagement. I suspect I'm not the only one who's the worst in dealing with control issues. I wonder if there's a 12-step group for this? Why not, there's a 12-step group for just about everything else.
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