Job Remorse

Hello Everyone: I started doing some of the work requires training yesterday and kind of regretted taking the job. The training session was on data handling and security, something important to the job. A lot of it was pretty obvious and I got through it quickly. The job remorse set in while I was doing the session. I started thinking, why did I take this job? The short answer is I don't have anything else at the moment and it could lead to something better. The longer answer is the HR company is already driving me up a tree with the emails and phone calls. No sooner did I accept when I got emails with all sorts of links for different things. This was folliwed by emails and voicemails confirming that I got everything and reminding me I had a short time to complete it. That really annoyed me. During the data training session, I started scrolling through my email to see if there were any permensnt teaching jobs availible. I already indicated to the HR person I talked to that I'd be interested in a permenant position, should one come that matched my skill set. One thing I did notice is that Sis and BIL changed their attitudes towards me. I did the family lunch thing yesterday and I noticed that they were a lot nicer instead of their usual holier than thou selves. One thing that did annoy me yesterday was BIL nagging me about Passover. It's this coming weekend and I have absolutely no plans to do any real preparations. I made quite clear that I want a very low key holiday this year and if I need anything, I'll ask. I think of the BIL's nagging is COVID brain fog. Whatever. I'm standing my ground on this one. No psycho holiday for me