Eventful

Hello Everyone:

The last 36 or so hours have been quite eventful. As I said Monday, I agreed to let the Sometime BF give me a ride to my job interview-which went well. I definitely appreciated not having to rush and having time to stop and eat something. We nipped over to the local Whole Foods for a quick bite and got into a  pleasant conversation with someone sitting across from us. This was after the Sometime BF took me by surprise when he showed up with a bag, ready for another overnight and walking in on me while I was taking a shower. Yes, he's seen me naked but that doesn't mean I'm not entitled to some privacy in the bath. After the interview, we came backnand went out for much needed  (me) coffee.  I had some excess energy to burn off and the walk did me some good. After dinner we talked for a while and he confessed that he always was in love with me but kept denying it. This why he kept pushing me away. It all recently manifested itself in the form of intense intestinal pain and that's when he had his epiphany. He finally realized he has to do something about it otherwise he feared losing me, hence the sudden attention. The Sometime BF told me couple of interesting things: First, he wanted to be in control of the outcome. He wanted to go out with other women but, in his mind, I wasn't allowed to see other men. He admitted that was a foolish idea. He realized that spent far too much time in his own little world instead of the real world, where don't always go according to the way we want. Second, had he not been such idiot when we first met, we probably would've been happily married by now with a child or two. I suppose that's still possible in some form or fashion. One of the things I love about the Brit BF is he states his intentions from the beginning, no ifs, ands, or buts about it.  That's one of the things I love about him: he knows what he wants and goes for it. It's like what I told mum: I love both men but only the Brit BF was offering what I genuinely desired, a genuine king last relationship. I'll be quite honest, the Sometime BF talks a good game but can he really play?  I mean really play, not like some little school boy. Only time will tell. Anyway, I'm tired and my eyelids are closing rapidly. More later.