Go Forward

Hello Everyone:

A good but cold day in the blogosphere. The good part was I posted an article on the suburbs as urban   spaces. It's a complicated relationship but one worth further study. The cold part was the air conditioning was turned on and I was freezing cold. I should've said something about it. It was a nice day, kind of warm but now it's cold.

In other news, I was thinking more about this upcoming job interview. I started thinking about what my goals are and how they can be achieved. My goals: move out, get a car, pay off my debts, study web design, maybe go back to school and get that masters in urban planning, and finally be totally independent. Well not totally independent, I want to move in with the Brit BF. Maybe I'm supposed to have this job so I can fuel my goals. If not this one, then another.  It's hard for me to figure out what steps I'm supposed to take to achieve everything. I prefer to know the way so I can plan ahead.  Life is a hard one to plan. You think you know where you're going and what you're supposed to do but then things get upended. You end up have to start over again. I think I've become an expert at starting over. I've done enough times. Truth is I'm too tired to start over again. I just want to give up but I have all these tall agenda items that I have to go forward. As much as I don't want to I feel compelled to do so. What else can I do?  Deal with my anxiety over this interview and go forward.