Mom's been up to her annoying games again. This time it's centered around the little nephew and my rejection of the Man in White. Yesterday over lunch, she suggested that I get the little nephew a small game for his birthday (it was Thursday and his parents are taking him out today). She also asked if I replied to an email sis sent about it the birthday dinner. I said "no," I haven't replied to the email because it's (they) is not that important and if I get the little nephew a present when would I give it to him? It's like she wants to manipulate me into actually spending time with people who could really care less if I'm there or not. Mom started in on her "I don't like the direction you're going in with your..." again. I point blank told her I did changed directions with my relationships, it's just she doesn't like it. She just get that a relationship is more than just sitting at the same dinner table or chasing after people. Then she said "I'm not going to cut my ties with them..." Like, how asked you. Why is everything about you? I'm so not not interested in chasing after thes people.
Over dinner Friday evening, mom tried to impart some advice through a story I read a long time ago. The basic gist of the story is that everything I do matters to the Man in White. Bollocks. People do evil things and get away with it. She the suggested that I speak to someone how could answer m questions about faith. Yeah, right like I want to talk to some 100 year old rabbi or middle aged woman whose only concern is what to prepare for the next meal about any any real questions I have. These people cannot relate to me. They just patronize and condescend, not giving me anything concrete to hang on to. Why can't anyone just leave me alone about stuff. I don't want any stories or advice. I just want some real guidance, patience, and understanding from someone who will treat me as an intelligent individual, not like some child.
No, I don't want run after people who repeatedly hurt my feelings and could care less if I'm around and I just want a separation from he Man in White.
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