Just some post-Yom Kippur thoughts. First I've come to the conclusion that I'm one of those fasters that gets bad headaches no matter what. Fornthe last few years I've ended the fast thoroughly depleted. I did get a chance to be alone with my thoughts. What I found is that I really need to improve my relationship with my mom. Try to be more patient with her, not fly off the handle over evey little thing. My relationship with my sister, I feel, is kind of a lost cause. She doesn't want a closer sibling relationship and I'm not going to chase her. Sad but true. My faith in a loving higher power has been renewed. My higher power is a loving,mood hearted higher power who watches out for me. He/she only wants good things for me. I've already had a sign, when he sent me the bf. I thank G-d everyday for that. I hope this year, our relationship will grow stronger and deeper. I also thank G-d everyday for the multitudes of gifts he's given. Even when I'm in my "I hate the world mode," I know that there is a G-d who still loves me as I am. No artifice or pretense. So this year, I plan to work more on my relationships with mom and the bf however imperfectly perfect.
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