Work Anxiety

Hello Everyone: I had a moment of anxiety today, at work. The source of my anxiety was the register training portion. The register training was watching another series videos while touching a cash register. I started thinking what am I doing here? Working at department store is complete madness but I could use the steady paycheck. I mean, it's better than living in a constant state of anxiety over how am I going to feed myself. At least I have an exit strategy. Right now the thought of interacting with other people is kind of scary. I think the fear my come from not really dealing with a lot of people for the past two years. I got so used to being on my own and keeping my schedule that having a set schedule and plac to be is alien. I know enough to be polite but anything else may take a lot of work. I'm not quite sure I can be the smiling customer service person that store management expects. I certainly don't feel totally ready to handle the cash register but that may not be so bad because I just have to follow the screen prompts. Honestly I still don't why I agreed to take this job but I did for lack of a better offer. It may not be so bad and I could actually enjoy it. I really wish the Brit BF would have enormous success at the AfroAnimation Conference and make it possible for me to stop taking work for the paycheck and be able to work for the sheer pleasure of it.