Feeling Lighter

 

Hello Everyone:

You know something, I hate dealing with bureaucracies.  Right, who likes talking to people who get paid to give you the run-around.  Case in point, I heard back from the city personnel depart who suggested I check their certifications link.  Thanks a lot.  Channeling the curse word emoji.  I don't even like dealing with the Department of Motor Vehicles but I have to do that this year to renew my license.  Oh well, at least I can do that online or make an appointment.  In other news, before mum passed away she used to warn me that I would be lost without her.  Well every step I take, everyday, is proving her wrong.  The problem was I was so busy taking care of her needs that I barely had time for my own.  In the month and half-ish since her passing I been feeling this new sense of freedom.  Nothing and no one is preventing me from doing what I need to do every single day.  Most of the time, my tasks involve sending an email, taking on the phone (?!), or sending a text.  It gets done over coffee, a meal, or whenever.  The point is, it gets done and I love the sense of accomplishment and a perverse sense of glee at proving mum wrong.  The good news is I don't have to do everything all at once, every day.  I can spread out my tasks and not squeeze them in between mum-related stuff.  It definitely feels like an incredible burden has been lifted off my shoulders.  What I genuinely find hilarious is the way my sister, BIL, and one of mum's friends think its truly amazing that I'm able to take care of myself.  It's like what's the big deal?  Of course I can do for myself, why is that so amazing at all?  This is what you get for underestimating me.