Too Much Work

Hello Everyone:

Thank goodness the Super Bowl is finally over. I don’t know what takes longer, a football game or a State of The Union speech. Well congratulations to the Philadelphia Eagles on their big win. I texted the Sometime BF yesterday evening to see how he’s settling into his mum’s house. He’s slowly getting settling in.  He’s work situation is slowly working itself out. But us is another story.  I feel that the neglect has done real damage to the relationship. It’s not beyond repair, yet, but we need to talk.  We need to have a major talk. I feel that he hasn’t done his part and the more he neglects the relationship, the harder it becomes to repair the damage. Too bad because I’m still optimistic about the relationship. Maybe I’m an incurable romantic looking for love but I hate to give up on people. What hurts is that whole big speech he gave about wanting a committed relationship. Now I realize they were empty words. I want to give him a chance to defend himself.  I’m just so mad at him for looking me in the eye and telling me all those lovely words. We’ve been friends for a lot longer than lovers and it feels like he betrayed the friendship. Why is this relationship so hard?  Will it be worth it or am I wasting time. Are all relationships so much work?  Yes, relationships are work but this much. I don’t know how I deal with this. Maybe I should just make a clean break and start fresh but not before I give the Sometime BF a chance to defend himself.