The Brit BF and I are back on. I was right, we weren't done just yet. I know this because we finally admitted to each other that we're still in love with each other. After enough flirty messages, I had to point blank ask him if he was trying to re-kindle the romance. He answered isn't that what we've both been doing from the start? I just needed the reassurance. Also, the whole coming and going thing was confusing for me. Was he coming back or was I supposed to go there? We were able to clear up some matters like my admitting to feeling overwhelm at the time. I shared that this was the first real relationship I've been since I split up from the evil ex. The Sometime BF showed promised but I have to admit, that he's only interested in the idea of a committed relationship, not the actual mechanics. Also, my intention on the first visit to the UK was to get a feel for the place. We may have language connection but it's still a culture shock. I told him that we'll have to set aside some real time when neither one of us is pre-occupied and talk about what we want. So, where does that leave the Sometime BF and I? Good question. He's busy with his mum and who knows when he'll reappear. Quite honestly I don't think I want a romantic relationship with him anymore. I can't deal with his disappearing act. Frankly, I want a committed relationship and I'm not going to get it from him. If the Brit BF is seriously offering me what I want, then I want to pursue it. It's too bad for the Sometime BF because I would say "yes" to him but he's not asking me. He's loss. I think that the Brit BF and I have had some serious time apart, we can return to the relationship with real clarity.
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