Hello Everyone:
Remember when I posted on Wednesday that I wasn't making future plans with the Sometime BF? I think I might have spoken too soon. He told me that for the first time in his life he was experiencing feelings of true love and I was the one. Wow, I was stunned. He told me he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me and he was done avoiding the obvious. The obvious being that he is madly in love with me and wants to make a life together. Part of me is thinking the Brit BF said the same things and look how that turned out. Granted, there no guarantees in life but I could really use one. I still can't let go of the feeling that his breathless declaration of love is only temporary. Once the rush fades, it'll be back to the same old, same old. If that does happen, I'm quite prepared to tell that I don't want to see him anymore. Yet still, there might be something there worthy of exploration. I want to see if he is for real. I know if I don't pursue this, I'll have major regrets and I don't want that. Truth is, we have a solid connection. There isn't anything we don't know about each other. We can be are true selves in front of each other. That's golden. I really want it to work out. He's confident it will. I'm still taking a wait-and-see approach. I'll do my share of the relationship work to insure a successful outcome but I'm still cautious. That's good because it'll keep from giving into impulse. What kind of relationship do I want? A permenant committed relationship, the kind that comes from marriage. I've made this clear to him already a few times and I think he's amenable to it. Let's just see what happens next.
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