A quiet Tuesday in store. Briefly messaged both my guys to see how they were doing. I really miss bf#2. We tried to talk yesterday but I could barely hear his soothing voice over the noise of my local coffee place. BF#1 stopped by yesterday to say hello which was nice of him. I sort of given up on ever seeing him more frequently. Ugh, why is it that all the men in my life, I care deeply about, are far away. Is this some sort of divine test to see how committed I am to a relationship? If it is a test, I don't appreciate it repeatedly being given and it being a one-sided exam. Although, bf#2 is holding up his end with his daily messages and weekly phone calls so there's hope. I'm still waiting to hear from USC about the my application but I'm not laying all my eggs in one basket. Still it would be nice to get this job and all the benefits that come along with it. The only downside is figuring out how to get there until I get a new car. You know what, I'm getting ahead of myself. First let me get both pedicured feet in the door, then I'll figure out the rest. I'm still keeping an eye out for any other openings that look good. Mom has been a real pain lately with all of her criticism. Like yesterday, she bitched at me for sitting at the table with BF#1 while she was eating and then not walking him to the elevator. Sorry. of course there was Sunday and her insistence that I go out with sis and the family despite being tired, then there was Saturday when I just wanted to sit and eat my meal quietly without the chit chat. She went as far to accuse me of not liking anyone. Partially true. There are just some people I merely tolerate and others I can't stand. Hopefully soon, I'll be in my own place and have all the peace and quiet I want.
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