The quietness continues only now it's been infused with the Minion's energy. His energy gives the quietness a positive charge. In this regard, it makes the quiet less overwhelming. Mom is still having great difficulties with the new guy. I try not to get angry at her because she is elderly and very set in her views but one thing stands out. I can invite over whom ever I want as along as she approves of them. Which means I can't have anyone over. Mom also thinks she has to entertain them, no she doesn't. In fact I prefer that she not be around if I have the bf or anyone over because I want to have time with him or whoever and have mom monopolize the visit. The end result is I don't invite anyone over and I don't get together with other people because that mean I'd have to invite them over. It upsets me very much that this is the case and only makes me more determined to get out and go away as far as possible from this situation. I don't want to slam the door for good on the relationship but I can't be a daily participant anymore. It's eating away at me. I feel suffocated. The only time I can relax is whenever mom isn't around. It's ridiculous that me, an adult, still has to have my friends approved by a parent. I don't care if she likes them or not, that's not the issue. The issue is that I live here and I can have whom ever I want over without getting permission. It's just more of mom's issues spilling out all over me. I don't care about her issues and I know should could care even less about mine. Truthfully, I'm so done living with mom, it's not even funny. I just want out.
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