Move Forward

Hello Everyone: What a morning. I got some administrative tasks done today, which left me feeling depleted. I applied for a part time job at a senior living facility (yay), filled out a financial aid form for the community college certificate program, and talked to someone about renewing my rent assistance. The senior living job is for a part time, on-site caregiver at a local facility. I checked it out on Google maps and its close enough to me that I could manage the commute. It seems like a nice way to make a living, looking after elderly people. I checked out the photos from the facility and it is a very nice place. Second, I finally committed to the community college teaching certificate program. So proud of myself. I think what was holding me back was the internship component. The prospect of finding a mentor teacher and getting a job once I completed the program was holding me back. I do that a lot, project into the future. Truth is I have to accept that I have no control over the future. I only have control over my present. My present is about doing the necessary work to move forward, not be inert or living in the hypothetical. Third, I did speak to a customer service person about additional rental assistance and I had some good news. I do qualify for additional resources and I'll get a short form to fill out and send back. Honestly, all this work is making feel depleted. I wish I could finally see a positive outcome from all of my work, not feel physically and emotionally drained. I think I have to take a mental health day and just get out for a while. I spend so much time in the house, in front of a computer, that it's making me stir crazy. I'm really looking forward to the community college training program because I can see myself being an adjunct professor of art, architecture, or American history. The program is equally attractive: Two Zoom classes and an internship at the community college of my choice. Fortunately, there is one not too far from my apartment. No major time, energy, or money committment on my part, unlike a graduate school program. I had a great time in grad school but it left me feeling completely burnt out and unable to handle another full time program. One of my grad school professors tried to talk me into a Ph.D but I wasn't that interested in the idea of spending another four to six years in school. Truth is I enjoy working and I think a certificate program is the way for me to get the training I need so I can move forward.