Miss It All

Hello Everyone: I reached the totally bored stage today. I found myself sitting at the table, after lunch, trying to decide what to do. I miss the structure work gave to my day. I ended up sending out a couple of emails and writing the latest post. I need to get back to work and not just so I afford the basics. For all the complaining I did, those two months gave form to my day. I had to be logged in by a certain time and I had a specific task or tasks to complete. Now I find myself making up busy work, not that blogging is mindless busy work, at least not the way I do it. It's just I need more to do than send emails or fill out online applications. Tomorrow is grocery shopping day so that's something to do. Another thing I've noticed is that I'm slipping back into my pre-employment habits of procrastination. When I worked, I had to be a little more organized with my time because I had to be somewhere. I was always great at it but I did my best. The last couple of days my attitude has been "what's the rush?" There isn't a rush but I don't want to wait until the middle of the day to start doing things like filling out online applications and the like. I'm not counting on getting an email recalling me back to my job so I'm looking elsewhere. Another downside is once again I have no one to talk to. The only good thing to come out of the eight-hour Zoom calls are the conversations I had with my co-workers. It was those interactions that made each shift more pleasurable. It's funny, at first I thought this job is just something to do while I look for something more stable. I didn't really care about it or the people one way or the other but life is kind of funny that way. Now that it's gone, I miss it all. I really do.