Some Plan

Hello Everyone:

Right now, I can't totally focus on what I want to post.  I started a post on rural broadband but a conversation I had with mum kind of distracted me.  She's been in the hospital with some serious mystery ailment and the doctors can only manage her care.  Yes, the future is scary prospect and I feel like I have to deal with it without any support network.  By that I mean, no one has ever asked me if I'm okay or do I need something.  Instead, I get stupid cards telling what a great person I am for giving up my life to care for mum.  Or, I get crap comments like "you have no commitments"--i.e. no husband or children.  Here's what I need, meaningful sustainable work, people who will listen to me, treat me like a valuable human being, not someone that just comes with the place.  Why is the meaningful sustainable work so important to me?  I want to be fully self-sufficient.  Believe it or not I want to pay my off debts.  No wonder I want out.  I'm surrounded by people who are so self absorbed, critical, judgmental, selfish, and self righteous.  The only reason I have to deal with them is that mum's friends.  What does that say about her?  It feels like even the universe is against me.  Feelings aren't facts and I keep hearing the universe has a plan for everyone.  So the plan for me is to be miserable?  Nice.