Down Time

Hello Everyone:

Today was far less stressful in a strange way.  As I said yesterday evening, mum's been having a down period.  It was bad enough that she actually phoned her doctor this morning instead of rushing off to the emergency room at the nearest hospital.  Her doctor told her to go to the ER for an evaluation. Fortunately, sis was able to take her and stay with her for at least a few minutes.  Here's where is gets a little strange.  Mum texted me earlier to say the doctor wanted to stay overnight.  I was actually relieved that she had to stay because it meant that I could whatever I needed or wanted to do without having to stop and take care of her.  This is what made it less stressful.  I could eat lunch, do some laundry, and run an errand without interruption.  I know it sounds awful to say this but I look forward to those moments when mum is not around because I can breathe a little.  Taking care of her solo can be a suffocating experience.  The carer is only here part of the week and she's still new.  I think I may chat with mum about having the carer come every day, even for a few hours, just to help her out.  It's not a task I can do alone.  Sis and the BIL may balk at the expense but I reckon if they can afford to support their do nothing son-in-law whose only real skill is making babies, then they can pay for daily visits from the carer.  That's just me.  Obviously once I find some meaningful work, I plan on picking up my share of the mum care expenses.  Through it all, the Brit BF has been a rock for me.  He offers encouragement and makes me laugh. I definitely will have to say yes to him.  I know that it'll raise serious objections but you what, I don't care.  He's been the only one who's been very supportive while others ignore or brush me off.  That's huge in my book.  Anyway, I have one or two more things to do before supper.