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Hello Everyone:

Sunday evening and time for a few thoughts. For the most part everything has been pretty good. I somehow managed to get everything I needed to done with minimal interference from mum.  Not even a wasted trip to the emergency room. What freakin joke that is. Another freakin joke is how she uses her illness as an excuse for not even making an effort to do anything. By anything, I mean she can’t even be bothered to get out her bed to turn off the radiator in her room because she’s nice and warm.  Basically, I think she exaggerates her symptoms so that she can manipulate family members and her so-called friends into believing that she’s too ill to even wipe her backside. You offer her solutions and she comes up with excuses. I know mum is annoyed that I accuse her of faking her illness but sometimes it’s hard to think otherwise because she affects this whole drama queen attitude. Another thing is mum thinks I’m interested to her about her medication-induced overflowing bladder. She has to use the toilet frequently because of a pill she takes once a day. Of course I could care less but just to be vaguely concerned, I’ve suggested speaking to her doctor about an alternative. Of course she hasn’t done it or if she has, somehow this is only treatment. In the meantime I’m pretend like I’m genuinely concerned about all her ailments. It sounds cold and callous but it’s the only way I can deal with everything, to be in compassionate.  Any other way just doesn’t work for me because I don’t want to get sucked into the daily drama. I just have to keep myself at a distance, emotionally and, one day, physically.